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Sunday, August 26, 2007
8:49 AM

My computer is giving me problems so I can't post up pics of the WOW Conference, but that can come much later.

My last post was written very much in grief because I really really wanted to give up on Sunday School Ministry mainly because I felt spiritually dry(more like i want to give up on my faith kinda dry) and I had no direction from God. I felt like I got thrown into this whole thing because Aunty Patsy left and only I can do the job since no one else will take it and people say "you are so talented, must use your gifts for God..bla bla bla" I only took the post because I felt pressured to take it. Yes I know can do it but I would do it "grudgingly" so to speak, for I had other plans that were not His.

So I pushed on from January it started hitting me in July, I would drive to church looking like I JUST got up and then up on stage I would put a facade for the Kids to see my 'happy to praise the Lord' face, and after debriefing with Aunty Jane I would go off. And last Sun I really wanted to drop it there and then, as selfish as it was I really wanted to stop, If sunday school is going to die I couldn't care less(at that point of time!) I was angry at people expecting me to always be there...I felt no one understood just how tiring this is, but really I was carrying burdens on my shoulders...burdens that I didn't need to worry about, burdens that Jesus wanted to carry but I wanted to be 'Hero'.

God was present throughout the Conference, on the second day Winnie spoke about spiritual dryness and she shared that she herself was going through spiritual dryness. But to me she looked as if she's literally walking next to Jesus! And God used her to minister to me; He said there will be streams in the desert. There will be streams in the desert.

God has reignite that passion in my heart, I know now why he made me the way I am, why I can be like a kid and my energy very rarely dies. I'm sharing this to you now, is so that you know the God answers prayers, it is not easy to wait on the Lord, but it's worth it.