Sunday, November 18, 2007
8:12 PM
Green with envy
“Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep.”
Romans 12:15
This monster of jealousy is slowly rising within me... Being happy for your friends isn't as easy as it use to be.
To be happy when your best friend tells you her expected salary is triple the amount you earn.
To be happy when your friend gets an opportunity to work overseas.
To be happy when your friends can afford to makes shopping trip to Bangkok/Singapore a few times in a year.
To be happy when it's so much easier for your friend to lose weight.
To be happy when it's easier for other people to get that fab bag you always wanted.
Everytime I force the most sincerest smile and give them a hug and say..."Oh I'm so happy for you!". I feel like a faker. I hate not being me! I hate the fact that I should feel all this bitterness and anger towards my friends, when really I should be happy and celebrate what they have!but right now it's more like, Weep with those who rejoice and rejoice with those who weep. I feel like a monster...don't hate me :(
